The World is Nothing More Than a Void of Shattered Dreams...

[epik_noodles]

Yes! I'm depressed again!
Why do bad things happen to good people?
It seems to be a pattern!!!

I am having the WORST day EVER!!!!!!!
First off!!!
Alex.... What you told me is true, BUT...
Even great leaders get "overthrown!"
That's right! I am on the verge of getting fired!!! Because of my futile protests, everyone has been threatening to fire me! To make things worse, my family wants to sell the restaurant off sooner than planned. Also because my parents want to pretty much disown me and return "home." And if they go, I have no means of supporting myself because I'm still in school. This morning, I received the gas bill and the rates were through the roof, it was even a "red notice" which means they're going to cut off the gas!!! To top that off, I can hardly afford to continue living in my house, so I might become homeless soon.

I want a future....
I wanted to go into filming/editing.
Or become an artist...
Or a pastry chef...
Or a technician...
Or a pharmacist...
(I'm talented in many fields)

But those things may never happen...
My life is ruined...
I'm still in college and I'm already going through this horrible crisis...
I have no future...

I've always wanted to go to Japan and visit Arata before I die... This lack of funds is going to set me back further, that means I won't be able to go to Japan next summer... I don't know if I will get to go to Japan ever!!! Why is this happening to me?!

And THAT was just my morning!
Even though I refused to go to work, I still got dragged there anyways.

I wanted to finish up my Shinjiro sketch, but the restaurant got really busy, so I couldn't do much. I answered a carry-out order for this lady named Nancy, she made her order and I filled it. Half an hour later... she calls up the restaurant again, but this time to yell at me. She started screaming on the phone, "HEY! I PLACED A CARRY-OUT ORDER AND YOU GAVE MY DAUGHTER THE WRONG ONE!!! WHERE'S MY FOOD??? YOU GAVE HER THE WRONG ORDER WHEN SHE PICKED IT UP!!!!" I calmly explained to her that the situation never happened, "excuse me mam, umm... no one has set foot into the restaurant yet, your order was the only order that was placed at this restaurant, your daughter could not have picked up the wrong order, because... no one can into the restaurant at all today... your order is sitting right next to me, there must be some mistake..." The lady became even more furious, "NO! I'M NOT CALLING TO ARGUE!!!! JUST BRING ME MY FOOD!!!! SHE ALREADY PAID FOR IT!!!!!! BRING IT NOW!!!!!!" I then said, "fine.. look... just give me your address and I'll deliver it personally, restaurant courtesy." She gave me her address and I told her that she still needs to pay for this order because it still hasn't been paid for, before I finished that sentence... she slammed the phone in my ear. What is going on?! No one came to pick up that order, but why am I being blamed? So I drove to the house and apologized like a hundred times, then they finally told me that IT WAS THEIR MISTAKE. It turns out that they ordered from my place but went and picked up the food from our competitor's place by accident. I don't see how that works... so our competitor handed/sold over food to a stranger that never placed an order there, HOW RIDICULOUS!!!! Man, I really needed to take my anger out on something. I need to punch something, sadly there was nothing punchable at the restaurant, so I started punching the register...

I had a bad day...
Life isn't worth it anymore...
Hopefully some Tuesday skating with friends will cure these blues.

But for now, I really don't have the will to live...