Depression Hurts...
Mar. 20th, 2010 11:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
epik_noodlesI've seen that commercial on the TV enough times...
Yeah... commercials are not the topic of this post...
I just finished reading through everyone's journal...
WHAT IS GOING ON?!
Why is everyone depressed on the same day, it's kind of contagious, I'll give you that, but that isn't what this is about. I was a little impressed that everyone is feeling a little down on the same day, including me.
Oh man, I wasn't having much of a good day today.
I was being denied many things and being harassed and annoyed by everyone at work. Why is everyone in my family emotional? I'm still crying about today. Wow... it's kind of difficult to see what you're writing when there's tears in your eyes.
I spent most of today in my angsting corner. I will tell you where it is... it's a nice little spot in a nook between two giant refrigerators. I just curled up and stayed there for most of the day. Well... I can technically also lock myself up in the big non-functional fridge, I fit in there, but it would be dark and creepy, so I don't do that.
Anyways, today, there was a screw up order of eggrolls, it was for carry-out, but it was already made and packed(haha double post) and it was made again as a dine-in order. So I claimed really loud that since it was a wrong order, it's now mine to eat, so I placed it on a shelf to save for later. I came back 15 minutes later to discover that they actually went ahead and served it to a customer that recently ordered it in the restaurant. I was really mad that they gave away my food, I was about to eat it! It's not fair, they took my food after I already said it was mine.
My other issue is that, people were giving me random commands when I already had a load of tasks on my hands. I was getting annoyed, because some of the requests would in no way get finished unless I left my post, I wasn't willing to move, I had too much to do!!! But Miki kept giving me more work, which I could handle at the moment. Miki likes throwing tasks at me to lighten her own load, some sister she is. I freaking out with trying to set my priorities straight and it wasn't helping that the restaurant was super packed and busy today. That gave me an intense headache.
What really pissed me off today was this problem... I was totaling up some table checks and I look up for a brief moment... and I see this man walk up to my workspace, which is a small table across the cashier counter with my laptop sitting open on it. The man just walks to my workspace and gets on my laptop. My thoughts are immediately along the lines of, OH NO HE DIDN"T, WHY ARE YOU TOUCHING MY STUFF?! HELLO!!! I DON'T KNOW YOU, YOU'RE JUST A CUSTOMER. Okay... I AM REALLY PISSED OFF!!!!!!! THIS GUY DOESN'T EVEN ASK FOR MY PERMISSION, BUT HE JUST WALKS UP AND GETS ON MY LAPTOP, THEN HE STARTS USING MY INTERNET!!!!!!!!!! Okay, first off he didn't even ask, secondly... if he did ask, I would've said no because this is a professional workplace... no play allowed(I can break that rule because I'm awesome). Don't you learn in kindergarten to not touch other people's things without asking first? That is mere common sense, which apparently is something this older man lacks. I was really mad, I was so tempted to leap over the cashier counter and beat the pulp out of him. But I have good restraint, seeing as how I'm not in jail with the charge of aggravated battery and assault... Yeah, I shouldn't joke about that... That guy saw me yelling at an employee over why he is on my laptop, so he then asked if it was okay to use my internet... As tempted as I was to say "no" and jump the guy who totally deserves my wrath, my aunt and mom gave me these soul piercing evil looks, so I ended up saying "sure, no problem.." Afterwards I stormed off to my angsting corner to cry.
Seriously this situation would be no different than waiting around for a friend in a public place and you leave your cellphone out, and you're a little zoned out from waiting. Then out of nowhere a stranger picks up your cellphone and starts using it without even saying a word to you. That stranger starts texting and making several phonecalls to you don't know who. Your reaction would probably be, "umm EXCUSE ME!!! That's my phone, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING WITH IT?!" You would assume that this stranger has no sense of respect or decency and you would probably try to get your phone back right?
I'm still crying about this!!!
Why does my day have to be so horrible?!
Yeah... commercials are not the topic of this post...
I just finished reading through everyone's journal...
WHAT IS GOING ON?!
Why is everyone depressed on the same day, it's kind of contagious, I'll give you that, but that isn't what this is about. I was a little impressed that everyone is feeling a little down on the same day, including me.
Oh man, I wasn't having much of a good day today.
I was being denied many things and being harassed and annoyed by everyone at work. Why is everyone in my family emotional? I'm still crying about today. Wow... it's kind of difficult to see what you're writing when there's tears in your eyes.
I spent most of today in my angsting corner. I will tell you where it is... it's a nice little spot in a nook between two giant refrigerators. I just curled up and stayed there for most of the day. Well... I can technically also lock myself up in the big non-functional fridge, I fit in there, but it would be dark and creepy, so I don't do that.
Anyways, today, there was a screw up order of eggrolls, it was for carry-out, but it was already made and packed(haha double post) and it was made again as a dine-in order. So I claimed really loud that since it was a wrong order, it's now mine to eat, so I placed it on a shelf to save for later. I came back 15 minutes later to discover that they actually went ahead and served it to a customer that recently ordered it in the restaurant. I was really mad that they gave away my food, I was about to eat it! It's not fair, they took my food after I already said it was mine.
My other issue is that, people were giving me random commands when I already had a load of tasks on my hands. I was getting annoyed, because some of the requests would in no way get finished unless I left my post, I wasn't willing to move, I had too much to do!!! But Miki kept giving me more work, which I could handle at the moment. Miki likes throwing tasks at me to lighten her own load, some sister she is. I freaking out with trying to set my priorities straight and it wasn't helping that the restaurant was super packed and busy today. That gave me an intense headache.
What really pissed me off today was this problem... I was totaling up some table checks and I look up for a brief moment... and I see this man walk up to my workspace, which is a small table across the cashier counter with my laptop sitting open on it. The man just walks to my workspace and gets on my laptop. My thoughts are immediately along the lines of, OH NO HE DIDN"T, WHY ARE YOU TOUCHING MY STUFF?! HELLO!!! I DON'T KNOW YOU, YOU'RE JUST A CUSTOMER. Okay... I AM REALLY PISSED OFF!!!!!!! THIS GUY DOESN'T EVEN ASK FOR MY PERMISSION, BUT HE JUST WALKS UP AND GETS ON MY LAPTOP, THEN HE STARTS USING MY INTERNET!!!!!!!!!! Okay, first off he didn't even ask, secondly... if he did ask, I would've said no because this is a professional workplace... no play allowed(I can break that rule because I'm awesome). Don't you learn in kindergarten to not touch other people's things without asking first? That is mere common sense, which apparently is something this older man lacks. I was really mad, I was so tempted to leap over the cashier counter and beat the pulp out of him. But I have good restraint, seeing as how I'm not in jail with the charge of aggravated battery and assault... Yeah, I shouldn't joke about that... That guy saw me yelling at an employee over why he is on my laptop, so he then asked if it was okay to use my internet... As tempted as I was to say "no" and jump the guy who totally deserves my wrath, my aunt and mom gave me these soul piercing evil looks, so I ended up saying "sure, no problem.." Afterwards I stormed off to my angsting corner to cry.
Seriously this situation would be no different than waiting around for a friend in a public place and you leave your cellphone out, and you're a little zoned out from waiting. Then out of nowhere a stranger picks up your cellphone and starts using it without even saying a word to you. That stranger starts texting and making several phonecalls to you don't know who. Your reaction would probably be, "umm EXCUSE ME!!! That's my phone, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING WITH IT?!" You would assume that this stranger has no sense of respect or decency and you would probably try to get your phone back right?
I'm still crying about this!!!
Why does my day have to be so horrible?!
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on 2010-03-21 06:20 am (UTC)I really hope you feel much better....This is all just ridiculous. -_- It sounds like too much was expected of you today, and a bit of disrespect too...Although it's possible, in the case of your food, someone may not have heard you.
Either way, as I said, I hope you feel better. *hugs* Seriously, I'm almost done with that fic! If that can even make you a little happier, then it's worth it!
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on 2010-03-21 06:25 am (UTC)Seriously...
That damn bitch!!!
Sorry... you guys got me in the mood.
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on 2010-03-21 06:37 am (UTC)And sorry to keep spamming your posts with comments...Seriously, I really AM almost done with the fic. I just keep procrastinating to reply! XD (Plus this one is a rubbish chapter anyway! =P)
Well, here's to hoping you stay happy and feeling better! Tomorrow we will be plotting our final message to Vic"whore"ia!
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on 2010-03-21 06:54 am (UTC)Hahahahahahaha!!!!
Good one!!!!!
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on 2010-03-21 06:35 am (UTC)I know that commercial! Never a good one, huh? -_- I'm so sorry you were so sad today, then had to read through all our depressing journals....You know, maybe it was the weather....maybe it just hit us all at once or something, because it really does seem contagious! But if we are the ones who made you even sadder, then I feel so bad! Please don't be sad because of us....Sometimes I feel so sad and I don't even understand why...
You were being bothered at work, though??? My goodness, doesn't anyone have any common decency anymore? Or any respect??? I'm so sorry your family is so emotional (perhaps it is because you guys love each other so much, so any little happening between you is ten times more powerful than if, say, it happened between you and someone you didn't know). I'm so sorry if that's not it at all! >.<
Though I'm glad you didn't lock yourself in the fridge >_<, I feel so bad that you had to hide away for a while. But you know what? Sometimes that's a good thing--I admire that you did the mature thing and went somewhere to be by yourself.
The screw-up order is just terrible, as is the fact that you got double the chores because your sister didn't want to do them (Tessie, do you think you could talk to her about that and tell her how you feel????), but the worst of all is the guy using your computer. Oh my goodness....I can see why that bothered you. That's just nuts....who really does that? He must have had a lot of bravado to just waltz up to it and use it! >.<
I don't blame you for crying, and I hope you don't blame yourself! I'm crying over petty internet garbage, but you're dealing with a real life situation--that's a lot more serious. You have every right to cry after what happened. I just hope that you'll feel better soon, and that if you need someone to talk to, know that Alex and I are here! Thank you for always being there for us....the least we can do is give you the same! And about the computer, next time that happens....*sigh*
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on 2010-03-21 06:52 am (UTC)Ya... you guys got me all worked up.
I completely forgot that I'm sleepy. I feel wide awake!
About my sister... yeah, she knows what she's doing is wrong, her skewed priority is talking to customers instead of her REAL job as a waitress. It's always been that way growing up, I do all of the work while my sister plays... why do I put up with it? Because I love my sister to bits. And we get along very well. But as for work at the restaurant, it only annoys me if we're REALLY busy that night and I have too much to do, then I really can't handle anything. But I rarely get mad over it, there was just a series of events today that made it worse is all.
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on 2010-03-21 07:06 am (UTC)And I'm so sorry our entries got you worked up! >.< I know that's really how I felt when I wrote mine. My heart was racing and my hands were shaking so bad. I just.....I just couldn't believe it. That kind of betrayal is just despicable. But I agree, like you said in my journal, this just means war. And I'm convincing myself that by "war", we mean "showing the AAA fan community on LJ just what they're dealing with in Victoria" (especially since now that we're gone, she refuses to share any more new AAA updates--it's all TAKAUNO now....and usually old Takauno stuff too).
About your sister....*sigh* I know that feeling.....And it's like something you can't escape, right? Just because you love your sister and would do anything for her, but even though you want that freedom, even though you want her to do her own work for once so you don't have to take the brunt of it all, you know--deep down--that you're going to end up doing it anyway, even if it's really unfair........Goodness....that's one of the worst feelings. Like you're trapped! (-.-,)
I know it might seem like it won't work, but maybe you could just talk to her and say, "I don't mind doing your work on the less busy nights, but please---I can't do yours and mine when it's busy. It's too stressful, so please help me out then!" Something like that, maybe. I know it seems like it might not work (I really understand this--it's a feeling I get a lot here, as I'm technically the oldest kid in the family....), but it couldn't hurt to try! I wish you all the best with it too!!!